我很快乐

Jing Jing shared with me another great blog entry by Taiwanese celebrity blogger lilyqueen titled “妳要快樂”. Reading it, I almost felt like I was reading my own reflections in Mandarin. (it’s spooky, this isn’t the first entry I felt this way about… and the blogger is just a month older than me.)

Happiness, they say, is an inside job. It takes courage to be happy because it requires honesty to self which is a scary thing. Learning to look at our own shadow, to accept it, and to move on… learning to let go of burdens and to embrace life’s unexpected gifts… we can be happy!

Right now, I’m happy. It’s been a really long time since I can say to myself without qualification that I am happy. It’s not because my life is now perfect; far from it… there are still many problems I can’t solve and many things that continually stress or upset me. But beyond all that, I feel that I’m walking forwards and that I’m doing the best I can, and I’ve begun to see the harvest from my past two years’ personal struggle… thus I am at peace, and I am happy.

For however long this palpable sense of serenity lasts, I will cherish it.

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The blog entry by lilyqueen mentioned an A-mei song that Wanting introduced to me and which I really liked. Here’s A-mei’ song to share with you. :)

我要快乐 [张惠妹]
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的