As part of a year long preparation towards our 40th feast day in August 2010, my parish of St. Mary of the Angels has launched the theme “Restore My Church” – the command that Christ gave St. Francis 800 years ago. In one of the efforts to engage the entire parish to make this pilgrimage […]
Month: August 2009
Fragile silence
From Mother Teresa’s “Total Surrenderâ€, p. 103-104 To make possible true interior silence, we shall practice: Silence of the eyes, by seeking always the beauty and goodness of God everywhere, closing it to the faults of others and to all that is sinful and disturbing to the soul. Silence of the ears, by listening always […]
Sacrifice – Bob Fitts
Back in March when I attended the Conversion Experience Retreat, the first talk that touched me deeply was the talk on God the Father’s Love. It never struck me before that talk that God was kinder to Abraham than to Himself; for God never intended Abraham to sacrifice Isaac – it was a test of […]
Journal: Before my vacation with the Lord
At 9a.m. today I’m starting a 4-day silent retreat. I’m pregnant with anticipation because even before the retreat, God has been reaching out to me in unmistakable ways. In the last 7 days alone, I have journeyed a great distance emotionally and spiritually. What is it you want me to do Lord? Speak Lord, for […]
Sleepless
It’s 2:04 a.m. and I’m wide awake. I can’t remember the last time I was unable to fall asleep. Maybe it’s because I’m hungry. Maybe it’s because I received several interesting and exciting news today that make me wonder at what plans God has for me. Maybe it’s because I found out today that a […]
That annoying weed in my field
Pride. It sucks. It makes me afraid to make a mistake – because I don’t want to fail. Even in spiritual matters I find myself tip-toeing around egg shells, afraid that I will make a false step and fail. I find myself succumbing to fear – that I would not live up to my own […]
Journal: Consolation
At mass today, I was filled with a deep sense of God’s love for me after receiving the Eucharist. I felt my heart open in response and I found myself talking to Jesus… “Lord, I’m sorry I still don’t have the faith to be unafraid of your will in my life. Please help me to […]
Discerning God's Will
A few days ago I asked a respected spiritual mentor for guidance in determining God’s will in my life. I wish to share it here as I am sure others will find the advice he gave me useful in their own lives. ******************** Follow your heart. Would that be irresponsible? No. If you have already […]
Journal: When I'm afraid to say, "Your will be done."
10:08 a.m. Friday, August 7, 2009 I believe this repeated influx of self-doubt is pruning me. This morning I felt God tell me to remember how, at this moment, I am afraid to truly mean “Your will be done” because I was afraid His will is for me to complete my PhD. But the reason […]
Journal: My Shepherd and I
One morning in the Adoration Room, when I was tired and anxious from trying to discern what is the ‘right’ thing to do, this vision suddenly came into my mind’s eye… I was a little lamb near the feet of my Good Shepherd. I was running around back and forth, jumping, prancing, earnestly trying to […]
