Month: October 2011

Lead me not into temptation

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. – Rom 8:28 It used to be that when I was tempted to stray from God, I would not put up much of a fight. It was much easier and infinitely more pleasurable to hit the ‘pause’ button in my walk with God and disappear for a while into the woods. Compulsion drove me and []

First Love

Every time I feel the battle within me rage, this is the song that I pray to. From the first time I ever heard it, I felt as if it was written just for me. Petra – FIRST LOVE  Words by Bob Hartman Based on Revelation 2:9, 1 John 4:19, Song of Solomon 2:4 Sometimes I feel I’m pulled in so many wrong directions Sometimes I feel the world seducing my affections It’s not that I don’t know the way It’s just []

The Washing of Feet (Jn 13:1-20)

I am John. Watching Jesus. Lately I’ve been watching him more closely. He has been quieter than usual. He has been going off alone to pray more frequently, and each time he comes back, he looks as if he had been crying. Over the last few weeks, he has been eating less, fasting at times. He has been getting thinner, and looking more gaunt. And so I watch Jesus tonight, more closely than usual. I was the first to see him get up []

Heart of a Disciple

Shortly after St. Ignatius’ conversion, his sinful past (as a womanizer, gambler, drinker, and brawler) left him in such despair that he considered killing himself. He had a profound sense of his own unworthiness and wondered “how it is that the earth did not open to swallow me up?” Yet the more he prayed about his sins, the more he marvelled at God’s unconditional love for him, and as time passed, Ignatius gradually gave God permission to heal him, renew him, and []

Ann Cassandra

For years I had regretted the choice of my Confirmation name.  At 14, I had felt that my baptism name ‘Ann’ was too plain. I wanted my Confirmation name to make my name more… romantic. And that’s why I chose Cassandra. I thought ‘Ann Cassandra’ had a nice ring to it. As I grew older, I became embarrassed about the frivolous, romantic name. And so it was that my Confirmation name had been a closely guarded secret for years. But recently, I []

Grow me!

There are times when I really wonder why God is so diligent in growing me.  There are days, weeks, even months in my life when I feel God constantly stretching me, teaching me, coaching me… without giving me much time to rest! (Sometimes the lessons are about learning to rest…but even there he’s growing me!) Whenever people ask me how I am doing, or how my life is, I have no words to describe my life. It is at once exciting, joyful, []

Companions

We need to draw a distinction between a friend and a companion. Let us say that a friend is someone who enjoys my company and whose company I enjoy. I have a good time when he’s around. I find myself laughing more, relaxing more. I like his sense of humor and his quirky mannerisms. It is a pleasure to be with him. But let’s say a companion is all this and more. Let’s say a companion is someone who deeply desires for []