Sometimes the more restless the heart is to reach out to others, the more it needs to remain in solitude in order to become still. Without stillness, our reaching out is compelled by neediness and a grasping insecurity instead of fullness and freedom of being. So dare to remain in solitude, my poor restless heart, […]
A home with a view
This morning I felt blessed by this particularly dramatic and picturesque sunrise. Who is like Him indeed? (Now imagine hearing birdsong as you look upon this scene… that’s my morning!)
ON MARRIAGE by Khalil Gibran You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days. Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God. But let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens […]
Open or shut… or neither?
Is my heart really open? Or are there barriers in me that I don’t know about?
It Takes Longer Than You Think
This reflection first appeared in my Begin Again monthly newsletter for September 2022. When it comes to our interior journey into authenticity and wholeness, we all begin with unrealistic expectations. I mean that everyone tends to think that the journey can be made relatively quickly so that we can carry on with our lives as […]
Waiting to Heal
Many want wholeness but don’t want to wait. But what if wholeness only comes to those who have learned to wait? And what if waiting is not passive but includes the most full-hearted surrender of ourselves that we can possibly imagine? What if it means putting ourselves out on the line, but at the same […]
Finding God in My Jigsaw Puzzle
For the past week, my husband and I have been working on a jigsaw puzzle. It was a gift from a friend and since neither of us are puzzle fans, it had been left untouched for a while. I finally decided to open it after a tough couple of weeks where my head and heart […]
As my birthday drew to a close this year, it hit me that this year marks 25 years since the first time I asked God for my mission – the mission He created me for. 25 years since Christ responded with, “Are you willing to suffer for me?” 25 years since He tenderly yet very […]
We Need to Talk About Bruno
We All Have a “Bruno” A friend recently expressed surprise that Encanto’s “We Don’t Talk About Bruno” has surpassed Frozen’s “Let It Go” in popularity. In fact, it recently hit #1 on Billboard’s Hot 100 chart – a feat that hasn’t been accomplished by any song from an animated Disney feature since “A Whole New World” […]
Honouring, Grieving & Letting Go
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1 “Can we get a cup of coffee sometime?” My heart sank when I saw this question come from yet another person who would like to talk to me about the work I do. I took a deep breath and […]
It Wasn’t Pride – It’s Shame (and It’s OK)
In my last blog entry (Dear Envy, What Are You Saying?), I shared how listening to an attack of envy helped me to recognise that underneath my envy was actually fear. Well there’s another aspect of my interior experience that I had mislabelled and misunderstood for decades until I had started learning about and recovering […]
Dear Envy, What are you saying?
I used to try and smash out any ‘sinful tendency’ the moment I detect it, and that often meant that I squashed any emotion that seemed less than virtuous. I would try to “pray them away”, often asking God to set me free from my weaknesses and to rescue me from temptation. But the more […]
He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles. -C.S Lewis- It used to be that whenever I failed to respond to God’s love or to love my neighbour as well as the […]
I’ve always been afraid of falling. Of making mistakes. Of being found to be less than perfect. Why? Even though I was told countless times through words that mistakes can make me stronger, that failure is part of learning, yet somehow my heart heard a different message. It may not have been through spoken words […]