A Blog by Ann Yeong (2005 – )
In my last blog entry (Dear Envy, What Are You Saying?), I shared how listening to an attack of envy helped me to recognise that underneath my envy was actually fear. Well there’s another aspect of my interior experience that I had mislabelled and misunderstood for decades until I had started learning about and recovering […]
I used to try and smash out any ‘sinful tendency’ the moment I detect it, and that often meant that I squashed any emotion that seemed less than virtuous. I would try to “pray them away”, often asking God to set me free from my weaknesses and to rescue me from temptation. But the more […]
He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles. -C.S Lewis- It used to be that whenever I failed to respond to God’s love or to love my neighbour as well as the […]
I’ve always been afraid of falling. Of making mistakes. Of being found to be less than perfect. Why? Even though I was told countless times through words that mistakes can make me stronger, that failure is part of learning, yet somehow my heart heard a different message. It may not have been through spoken words […]
When there is a truth we have buried deep inside us because it is too painful to acknowledge, it becomes an impediment to healing. And if we really decide to follow Christ, there will be times when He calls forth from the grave those forgotten parts of us – those parts we have exiled because […]
“There should always be more waiting than striving in a Christian’s prayer.” – Everlyn Underhill Near the beginning of our journey, we move from apathy into caring about having a relationship with God. As we grow more attached to Christ and value this relationship, we will quite naturally become more intentional about deepening this relationship […]
I have a secret I have kept since I was a child. I have kept it because I was ashamed. And the secret is this: that I numb out every Good Friday. Emotionally, I turn to stone. Over the years I have tried all kinds of things to get myself to feel something, but there’s […]
It struck me recently as I crossed my 42nd birthday that the “more” my heart desires is not for the many things I want, but for the deep that my soul needs. There are many very good things I want, and want rightly because they are good. But I also know that these are the […]
Sometimes we must let ourselves lose faith in God so that we can discover that the God we believed in was not really God at all but a projection of our fears and anxieties. So powerful are these projections that they colour all our religious experiences, including the way we hear and interpret scripture, how […]
I woke up at 2am and was unable to return to sleep. Something was bugging me. It’s two days before Christmas and I felt an unexpected sense of urgency to listen to the knot in my stomach that I have been semi-ignoring for the past several days. “The Word of God is coming, Ann. Are […]
Journey of the Heart 