“For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. But if I am to live on in the flesh, this will mean fruitful labor for me; and I do not know which to choose. But I am hard-pressed from both directions, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, for that […]
Category: Faith & Spiritual
God provides
It’s amazing how beautiful the world becomes when I open myself to God’s grace. In so many little things, in little ways, my days are brightened when I let Him lead me. Unexpected encounters, a chance to spend time with a friend’s hospitalized mother and hear about her life story, a lovely new hand-bag from […]
"I am just here to be beautiful"
…I suspect that too often we have lost contact with the source of our own existence and have become strangers in our own house. We tend to run around trying to solve the problems of our world while anxiously avoiding confrontation with that reality wherein our problems find their deepest roots: our own selves. In […]
My philosophy of housework
It is my own conviction that doing housework is good for my soul. There is something very down-to-earth and grounded about making the home a clean, tidy and comfortable place to live for my family. Each little act – be it making the bed, cleaning the bathroom, vacuuming and mopping the floor or washing dirty […]
On this my 30th Birthday
I am 30! Biblically, ’30’ denotes in a higher degree the perfection of Divine order, as marking the right moment. It often marks a coming of age: Christ was 30 years old at the commencement of His ministry (Luke 3:23). Joseph was 30 when he entered into Pharoah’s service in Genesis 41:46. King David also, […]
Knowing myself
Here I am, on the eve of my 30th birthday. And I finally understand myself. By nature I am earnest and passionate. I am sincere. These traits were not learned. They were in me from the start. And so in my earnestness, I have always been eager to learn and to learn well. From my […]
PhD supervisor from Heaven
This morning, I finally felt a prompting to call my supervisor in Toronto and tell him about my decision regarding the PhD. John Portelli has always been an amazing supervisor – a poet, scholar, revolutionary, educator and a man of faith (he is a devout Catholic from Malta). Even before I spoke with him, I […]
On my own
There is a deep sense that what I am going through now cannot be shared with anyone. Not even with Zibin. Not because I do not wish to, but because it is impossible to be expressed, and because I have an understanding that I AM meant to be alone. It seems that this has been […]
Death and rebirth
For the last 11 days, I have been living almost in an altered state of consciousness. It is as if I am “me” and yet “not me.” It is as if I suddenly have hit the realm of being and actualization. Not that this is a finite or static state, but that I am finally […]
Meditative grace
I have been practicing daily meditation for about 3 years, though with some irregularity at times. I started with 20 mins, then to 25 mins, 30 mins, and once, an hour. But though the time spent meditating can be long, my experience is that it is not often, and not for very long, that I […]
Journey of the Heart 