I had forgotten how spunky and delightful I used to be. Am I still her?
It is the Lord who speaks: I am going to lure her and lead her out into the wilderness and speak to her heart. I am going to give her back her vineyards, and make the Valley of Achor a gateway of hope. There she will respond to me as she did when she was young,as she did when she came out of the land of Egypt. When that day comes – it is the Lord who speaks –she will call me, ‘My husband’, no longer will she call […]
Here is no martyr; no heroine; no selfless lover. I am weak and thoroughly selfish. I love You not for You, but for what You give me. I love the consolations of God, not the God of consolations. These roots are deep. And yet I am grateful for this unmasking, for I am so proud and slow that each unmasking reminds me that I am truly in need of a Saviour and Redeemer. Only when faced with my poverty do I turn […]
In true love for our neighbour lies all the asceticism we need. Here is the way we die to self. What are disciplines, artificial practices of penance and humility compared with this relentless pursuit of love? Perfect love of the neighbour means complete death to self and the triumph of the life of Jesus in us.
It is folly to always seek understanding before obeying when it comes to the spiritual life. For in faith the intellect and will are the last to be purified, and they must be purified by love. I am doomed if I rely on my darkened intellect to direct me rather than the love of God which eludes understanding except in grace. Indeed I need to follow the way in which I know not.
What would it be like if I didn’t live for myself, for my own pleasure? If I could lose myself in service of others, how happy I would be! If I could care nothing about my own inclinations, I would be free. Lord, I want to be free. Help me to forget myself completely and live for others for Your sake so that my joy may be complete!
Lord, I have been praying this for a while and now I pray it again: Cleanse my heart! Rip out every last vestige of any idol that is there. Break my heart if You will it, if it is what will free me to love You more deeply and serve You more completely. I will not entertain any thoughts that instil fear, anxiety, and disquiet in me. I will not cave in to curiosity. I choose to turn my gaze back to Your […]
Attributed to Fr. Pedro Arrupe, SJ (1907–1991) Nothing is more practical than finding God, than falling in Love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, whom you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in Love, stay in […]
From a journal entry dated 8 January 2014: My vocation is to be loved; so loved that I can love without fear; be a beacon of Truth, accepting and bearing rejection, hatred, anger, for the sake of souls… to be a mother who will love her children enough to bear their tantrums, misunderstanding, and anger in order to mold them into souls reflecting Jesus Christ. I have no doubt that the transformation God will work in me will be this: that I […]
“Why do you love Me?” I love God because of the many things He does for me… He is my rescuer, my liberator, my saviour. But I still do not love Him for Him apart from anything He does for me. “Would you be willing to remain in chains if I asked you to?” I long for freedom from concupiscence, I yearn to grow in holiness that I might stop fearing suffering… I’ve got it all backwards without realising. I do not […]