I am 30! Biblically, ’30’ denotes in a higher degree the perfection of Divine order, as marking the right moment. It often marks a coming of age: Christ was 30 years old at the commencement of His ministry (Luke 3:23). Joseph was 30 when he entered into Pharoah’s service in Genesis 41:46. King David also, […]
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Knowing myself
Here I am, on the eve of my 30th birthday. And I finally understand myself. By nature I am earnest and passionate. I am sincere. These traits were not learned. They were in me from the start. And so in my earnestness, I have always been eager to learn and to learn well. From my […]
PhD supervisor from Heaven
This morning, I finally felt a prompting to call my supervisor in Toronto and tell him about my decision regarding the PhD. John Portelli has always been an amazing supervisor – a poet, scholar, revolutionary, educator and a man of faith (he is a devout Catholic from Malta). Even before I spoke with him, I […]
On my own
There is a deep sense that what I am going through now cannot be shared with anyone. Not even with Zibin. Not because I do not wish to, but because it is impossible to be expressed, and because I have an understanding that I AM meant to be alone. It seems that this has been […]
Death and rebirth
For the last 11 days, I have been living almost in an altered state of consciousness. It is as if I am “me” and yet “not me.” It is as if I suddenly have hit the realm of being and actualization. Not that this is a finite or static state, but that I am finally […]
1st Day as Catechist
Today marked the first day I ‘taught’ Catechism class. I say ‘taught’ because I don’t believe that I’m there as much as to teach as it is to witness to these children how joyful a life lead in the knowledge of being loved by God is. We had a great time today playing the ‘alliteration […]
Meditative grace
I have been practicing daily meditation for about 3 years, though with some irregularity at times. I started with 20 mins, then to 25 mins, 30 mins, and once, an hour. But though the time spent meditating can be long, my experience is that it is not often, and not for very long, that I […]
In praise of Henry; My mission
The most precious gift that God has ever given me is a husband who loves and fears Him and who trusts Him so completely, he can accept many things in faith without understanding. In the last week, my life has taken a sudden and dramatic turn. Although on hindsight it is clear that my entire […]
God takes His time to answer prayers
You have already read how I have always longed for a deep and true friendship in which I would feel loved and accepted. I just didn’t know what kind of friendship would fulfill my desires. For years I had searched and been disappointed. Time and again I was hurt and disillusioned. I had even given […]
A new creation
My friends, yesterday marked the 7th consecutive day of healing for me and amazing things have happened. Things that I feel many of you will not believe, though perhaps that sentiment of mine is from a lack of trust in God. Would you believe me if I told you that miracles have happened in my […]
Journey of the Heart 