In the past few days, I’ve read some things from two different books that match my own descriptions about my spiritual journey. That’s not surprising at all, of course, considering that the experience of being on a spiritual journey is pretty universal. Still, it was interesting that after all these years, I see it in somebody else’s words.
The phrase that struck me the most was that ‘pain is the fuel for passion’. The full quote is:
Pain is the fuel for passion – it energizes us with an intensity to change that we don’t normally possess. C. S. Lewis said, ‘Pain is God’s megaphone.’ It is God’s way of arousing us from spiritual lethargy. Your problems are not punishment; they are wake-up calls from a loving God. – Rick Warren, “The Purpose Driven Life”
This phrase struck me because that has exactly been how I’ve always felt about my ever on-going spiritual journey. Whenever I look back at my life, it is the hardest times that have spurred me to grow the most in every imaginable way. And it is also true that it is often in the darkest, most painful times that I surprise myself with just how much I can do. It’s like finding out that I can carry a much heavier weight than I believed I was able to. But I only realize how strong I can be when I stop trying to play God, but rather, surrender to Him. Surrendering in this sense is the most rational and powerful thing I can do. And I’m still learning how to do it. :)
Another quote that struck me is:
All these gifts (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, fidelity, gentleness and self-control) are released as we learn to listen to the language of the heart which is the silence waiting for us beyond the orbit of our noisy self-fixation. – Laurence Freeman, OSB, “Christian Meditation – Your Daily Practice”
“The silence waiting for us beyond the orbit of our noisy self-fixation.” TouchÃ©. *sheepish laugh*