The sensation is familiar, yet new.
I feel the familiar pang of rejection, and yet, even as my heart constricts in pain, I find myself turning instinctively towards You. I am not running to You in an attempt to escape the pain in the way I used to. No, it is more of a turning towards you so that I can face you in my pain.
Why is it that answered prayers can feel so afflicting? You’re purifying me, and I find that I am unable to turn away. Because as painful and difficult as this is, You are the one who calls me. And my prayer remains ever the same. I will praise You in the storm. Regardless of how afflicting the process might be, may it be according to Your will. All I desire ultimately is You!
Journey of the Heart 