My First Love

On His Plan For Your Mate

Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone: to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But, God to a Christian says, no, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me, alone. With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me. To having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me, alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I plan for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me, really united with another, exclusive of anyone, or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing…one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best, please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep watching Me…expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am. And keep listening and learning the things I tell you.

You just wait, that’s all…wait. Don’t be anxious, don’t worry, don’t look around at the things that others have gotten or I have given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. Just keep on looking off and away to Me, or you will miss what I want to show you. And then, when you are ready , I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than anything you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, and I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepare for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me. And this is perfect love. And, dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want to see in you, in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me. And I want you to enjoy materially, the everlasting union and beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. I know that I love you utterly. I am El Shaddai-most loving Father, God Almighty. Believe it and be satisfied and I will satisfy you.

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The first time I read this piece, I got goosebumps because I felt it spoke directly to me. I was already with Zibin at the time, but this love letter exactly described what I had discerned from my personal experience.

Zibin and I have always known that the most powerful way we can love each other was to continue committing to God as our First Love. But even though we knew that in our heads, it wasn’t something we knew how to do right from the start. Even now, we’re still learning.

I have never been starry-eyed when it comes to ideas of love. In fact, I may be more cynical than many people would think.

I think there are many more unhappy marriages than there are truly happy ones. I think that many people get into relationships for all the wrong reasons. I think that no matter how compatible a couple may be, it takes hard work to make a relationship strong. I also believe that no matter how wonderful things may be at any point in a relationship, there is no chance for complacency to set in. There will always be new challenges… and if a couple stops growing together at any point, even a relationship that had the strongest beginning can break apart. That was why I was convinced that unless I found someone truly extraordinary, I would rather lead a fulfilling single life than be committed to an unhappy marriage.

Well, I do believe I have found someone extraordinary and immensely special. When I think of him, I always think of the One who created him, and the awesome responsibility I have to honour this Gift.

So I pray that as each day goes by, I will become better at loving Zibin. Not in the way I need or want… not in the way he needs or wants… but in the way God desires me to… for that would be the truest love of all!


  1. Sometimes your sentences strike me more than you ever know :)

    “if a couple stops growing together at any point, even a relationship that had the strongest beginning can break apart” – this is the truest sentence of all…

    So my question (for discussion) is, how do you ensure a couple never stops growing together? Is it through constant and meaningful communication? Through spending lots of time together? Doing things together? Praying together? :)

  2. Ha ha… wah, got discussion question one. Like forum! :P

    How do you ensure a couple never stops growing together? I think the most important thing is the first one you mentioned – constant and meaningful communication. Often people hear the word ‘communication’ and assume they know what it means. Yet, few people these days really make the effort to genuinely communicate.

    I think of communication as the channel for a couple’s love to reach each other. It may not be just talking… it could be spending quality time together, being quiet together, praying together. What works most effectively for each couple may differ. What matters is that they love each other enough to communicate in the way their beloved needs.

    When there is constant loving communication, I think that it is usually inevitable that a couple will grow together. Ultimately though, I believe that our efforts at best complement the God-given grace that comes when we love God with all our mind and heart, and love our neighbour as our selves!

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