Category: Faith & Spiritual

Today wasn’t that great a day for me – my throat was scratchy, I was tired, I didn’t do most of the things I had wanted to do (in both work and prayer), I felt distracted the entire day, grumpy, impatient and for a few hours I thought I had lost my beloved bible. But […]

I’ve always been the kind of person that gets teased a lot. And I know that the teasing is affectionate, at least most of the time. But there was a dark period in my life when I was in my teens, when my inner world was tumbling around me, and during that time, the laughter […]

Agnus Dei (Lamb of God) by Francisco de Zurbarán (1598 – 1664) During my most recent Sacrament of Reconciliation (which is often integrated with spiritual direction when I’m with this particular priest), my confessor suddenly turned his computer monitor around and showed me his wallpaper. It is the painting I have featured in this post. […]

From Mother Teresa’s “Total Surrender”, p. 103-104 To make possible true interior silence, we shall practice: Silence of the eyes, by seeking always the beauty and goodness of God everywhere, closing it to the faults of others and to all that is sinful and disturbing to the soul. Silence of the ears, by listening always […]

At 9a.m. today I’m starting a 4-day silent retreat. I’m pregnant with anticipation because even before the retreat, God has been reaching out to me in unmistakable ways. In the last 7 days alone, I have journeyed a great distance emotionally and spiritually. What is it you want me to do Lord? Speak Lord, for […]

Pride. It sucks. It makes me afraid to make a mistake – because I don’t want to fail. Even in spiritual matters I find myself tip-toeing around egg shells, afraid that I will make a false step and fail. I find myself succumbing to fear – that I would not live up to my own […]

At mass today, I was filled with a deep sense of God’s love for me after receiving the Eucharist. I felt my heart open in response and I found myself talking to Jesus… “Lord, I’m sorry I still don’t have the faith to be unafraid of your will in my life. Please help me to […]

A few days ago I asked a respected spiritual mentor for guidance in determining God’s will in my life. I wish to share it here as I am sure others will find the advice he gave me useful in their own lives. ******************** Follow your heart. Would that be irresponsible? No. If you have already […]

10:08 a.m. Friday, August 7, 2009 I believe this repeated influx of self-doubt is pruning me. This morning I felt God tell me to remember how, at this moment, I am afraid to truly mean “Your will be done” because I was afraid His will is for me to complete my PhD. But the reason […]