Category: Faith & Spiritual

The most precious gift that God has ever given me is a husband who loves and fears Him and who trusts Him so completely, he can accept many things in faith without understanding. In the last week, my life has taken a sudden and dramatic turn. Although on hindsight it is clear that my entire […]

You have already read how I have always longed for a deep and true friendship in which I would feel loved and accepted. I just didn’t know what kind of friendship would fulfill my desires. For years I had searched and been disappointed. Time and again I was hurt and disillusioned. I had even given […]

My friends, yesterday marked the 7th consecutive day of healing for me and amazing things have happened. Things that I feel many of you will not believe, though perhaps that sentiment of mine is from a lack of trust in God. Would you believe me if I told you that miracles have happened in my […]

Today is the happiest day of my life. Today, I realized that in all my life, I have never been able to accept or love myself because I have been measuring myself against my mother. What I am about to share in no way detracts from all the wonderful ways she has loved and taught […]

Note: ‘ABD’ is a term PhD candidates use to describe their “All-But-Dissertation” status. That means they’ve finished all their requirements except the dissertation – it’s the final stretch. I’ve been ABD twice. Once in early 2007, then again in early 2008 because I decided to change my topic after realizing the first topic was unfeasible. […]

People of faith don’t believe in coincidences. So I see it as God’s perfect timing that yesterday, my father brought back a digitally restored video of my kindergarten performance in 1984. Just when I realize that I don’t know how to accept or love myself – and that I don’t even know how to see […]

A while ago, after I had become aware of my great need for healing, I felt a strong inner prompting to seek the direction and counsel of Fr. William Goh. Initially I was hesitant to approach him because I know him to be extremely busy, being the rector of the St. Francis Xavier Seminary and […]

The revelations keep coming. And I had a real tragically funny one this morning. It suddenly hit me WHAT my distorted image of God was. It was the image of a God OBLIGED to love me. And so it is that I have always believed God loves me no matter what. But He loves me […]

Do you ever feel a sense of obligation to be happy? I realize I do. When people ask me, “So how have you been?” I usually respond with, “Ok.” And then I’d feel guilty about not being able to have responded with, “Everything’s great!” That’s right, I feel guilty for not being happier. Like there’s […]

I learned today, that while all along I have been trying to love God, I have not allowed God to love me. And linked to that is my inability to love and accept myself, and my ingrained idea that love needs to be merited. What a heavy burden it is that I have been carrying […]