The question I must answer

Who are you, God, and who am I? For so long I have not had an accurate view of who I am. I see what I wish to see; I see what isn’t there but which I want to be there; I see through other’s eyes (or what I think they see). I see more than I am and less than I am. I could never be confident or sure of any opinion about myself unless someone else affirmed it. I was []

5 most important lessons learned in 2014

1. I must first learn to love myself before I can empty myself for others without harm to myself. The command is “to love your neighbour as yourself.” 2. I can only be as patient and compassionate to others as I am to myself. 3. It is very OK to do whatever it takes to make my inner child feel secure and loved. 4. Never be apologetic about choosing what is life-giving to myself. 5. Never make decisions according to the needs []


Once again I feel the beauty of the wilderness beckon. I have already actually entered the wilderness some time before, but I have hovered near its edges. From time to time I have been able to come out and return to ‘civilisation’. But over time, the call of the wild has become more beguiling, insistent, compelling. My Beloved has gone ahead of me even as his love is with me. He awaits me out there in the heart of the wilderness where []

2014 – Breaking Free

The theme of 2014 has been Freedom, and what a splendid year it has been on that account. “Be silent, be still, listen, and do whatever He tells you.” Just do it. And I have! :D

The 2 stages of love

“In any love-story there are usually two stages or phases. There is the initial stage, where love is expressed by the giving of gifts, especially the gift of self. Then there comes a time when it is no longer enough to give gifts to the beloved, but one has to be ready to suffer for her or for him. Only then can it be seen whether the love is real. In the story of a vocation to consecrated virginity there are also []